Day 31. Navel Gazing

Day 31.  I’ve been at this for a month.  Can’t believe it, actually.  Yes, there have been days when I’ve woken up, groaned and thought:  “Oh, I don’t have time to think of an idea and write a blog today.”  And then, miraculously, an idea pops into my head and next thing you know, it’s done.  For another day.  Sometimes, several ideas pop into my head and I write notes on them (so I won’t forget) and store them away, like a squirrel saving nuts for the winter.

The bottom line is, I’m having a blast.  And the month has flown by.  Really.

As part of my wow-it’s-been-30-days-and-counting celebration, I decided I’d re-read all my stories.  One after another, as if I was reading a book.  It took quite a while.  About two thirds of the way through I realized, because so many of them are about my own personal experiences and memories, likes and dislikes, I’m revealing myself to myself.  I’m becoming aware of aspects of me I wasn’t all that conscious of before.  It’s like looking in a mirror and seeing your soul reflected back at you.  It’s interesting.  Enlightening.  And a bit weird.

So what have I discovered?  Well, I can’t be described in just one word, I’m complex.  There are a lot of layers to me; and the more you peel away, the more is revealed:  I’m observant.  Sensitive.  Emotional.  Kind.  Serious.  Cynical.  Compassionate. Loving.  Appreciative.  Demanding.  Giving.  Creative.  Tolerant.  Intolerant.  Introspective.  Outgoing.  Friendly.  Bold.  A loner.  Inquisitive.  Adventurous.  Affectionate.  Honest.  Spiritual.  Aesthetical. Independent.  Liberal.  Patient.  Impatient.  Superstitious.  Open.  Passionate.  Loyal.  Indulgent.  Sincere.  Judgemental.  Self aware.  And that’s just for starters.  Just kidding!!!

All that from thirty blog posts?  Well, yeah.

But my most significant discovery is this:  When you look at the list of characteristics that define me, they’re pretty much the same characteristics that define each Continue reading