What can I say, I’m desperate …

I need a distraction. I need to take my mind off the lunacy of the US presidential race and the heredityhorrifying images of carnage every time we turn on the TV.

Guess I’m grasping at straws because suddenly, out of the blue, I started to think, and wonder, about heredity; and why we inherit some traits and characteristics and not others.

Both my parents loved chocolate. In the extreme. I never Continue reading

Day 326. Not Surprising

Have you ever tried to figure out why you are the way you are?  Yes, DNA definitely has something to do with it.  Your parents influence you, to some degree.  Whereroots you live, how you live, with whom you live certainly all have an effect.  Life, itself, is a factor.

But there are some characteristics each of us has, the ones we think are unique to us, that sometimes make me wonder.

In recent posts I’ve talked about myself a lot.  My feelings about feminism.  My moral code.  My standards.  My approach to friendship and love and work and life.  And there seems to be a common thread that runs through all of it.

I have strong convictions.  I stand up for what I believe in, regardless of the consequences.  I am an independent thinker; and doer.  I am not easily influenced by the opinions of others.  Even as a young child I Continue reading

Day 31. Navel Gazing

Day 31.  I’ve been at this for a month.  Can’t believe it, actually.  Yes, there have been days when I’ve woken up, groaned and thought:  “Oh, I don’t have time to think of an idea and write a blog today.”  And then, miraculously, an idea pops into my head and next thing you know, it’s done.  For another day.  Sometimes, several ideas pop into my head and I write notes on them (so I won’t forget) and store them away, like a squirrel saving nuts for the winter.

The bottom line is, I’m having a blast.  And the month has flown by.  Really.

As part of my wow-it’s-been-30-days-and-counting celebration, I decided I’d re-read all my stories.  One after another, as if I was reading a book.  It took quite a while.  About two thirds of the way through I realized, because so many of them are about my own personal experiences and memories, likes and dislikes, I’m revealing myself to myself.  I’m becoming aware of aspects of me I wasn’t all that conscious of before.  It’s like looking in a mirror and seeing your soul reflected back at you.  It’s interesting.  Enlightening.  And a bit weird.

So what have I discovered?  Well, I can’t be described in just one word, I’m complex.  There are a lot of layers to me; and the more you peel away, the more is revealed:  I’m observant.  Sensitive.  Emotional.  Kind.  Serious.  Cynical.  Compassionate. Loving.  Appreciative.  Demanding.  Giving.  Creative.  Tolerant.  Intolerant.  Introspective.  Outgoing.  Friendly.  Bold.  A loner.  Inquisitive.  Adventurous.  Affectionate.  Honest.  Spiritual.  Aesthetical. Independent.  Liberal.  Patient.  Impatient.  Superstitious.  Open.  Passionate.  Loyal.  Indulgent.  Sincere.  Judgemental.  Self aware.  And that’s just for starters.  Just kidding!!!

All that from thirty blog posts?  Well, yeah.

But my most significant discovery is this:  When you look at the list of characteristics that define me, they’re pretty much the same characteristics that define each Continue reading